Tuesday, September 1, 2009

In my head


With all the things going on in my head, I wonder WTF is going on in other's head.
Whether good or bad, happy or sad, I sometimes sit or walk and just look at people and wonder what's going on in their head.
What's going on in the head of my boss when he looks at me and see my damn face?
What's going on in Lamont's head after he's seen how heartbroken he left me?
What's going on in CMM's head after she tells me "its not about the number but about the health" but then gives me a number?  
This is just the beginning of me wondering...
What's going on in their head?!?

Another Day Today

Currently I'm just sitting at work, here in my cube, here staring at my monitor and thinking so many thoughts.  Where do I start??? Someone once said, when you have so much going on in your head, make and list, write it out and then things will become more visual.  I don't think I have a problem being visual, I think my problem more or less is I'm so analytical lately that I'm starting to wonder why am I reading so much into things.  There are so many things going on in my head. Things like what I want to do, things I need to finish, places I want to go, money I need to save, bills I have to pay, people I want to see, things I miss, things I can't stand, things I want to change, things I love...the list just goes on and on.  And who am I kidding right...this shit happens to everyone...right?!?

Sometimes I feel like my thoughts are in limbo.  Maybe I'm in limbo. lol

I think honestly, my limbo started occurring when Lamont left.  That's a different story that I'm not getting into right now.

I'm sitting at work wondering...I'm really appreciative of my job but boy do I hate this place.  So monotonous.  So redundant.  So on and on and on and on.  WTF is all I can seem to say on any given day that describes how I feel.